http://bouche.vox.com/library/posts/tags/exhaustion/page/1/ but it will have to do. en Vox Fri, 16 May 2008 00:04:30 -0400 Copyright 2008 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss exhaustion http://bouche.vox.com/library/post/exhaustion.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Bouche) http://bouche.vox.com/library/post/exhaustion.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://bouche.vox.com/library/post/exhaustion.html?_c=feed-rss-full Fri, 16 May 2008 00:04:30 -0400 <p>I function well when I&#39;m exhausted.&#160;</p> <p>I&#39;m not taking &quot;about to die exhausted&quot;, just the level where you&#39;re more in tune with how your muscles don&#39;t want to fight gravity any longer.&#160; How there&#39;s a weight on your eyelid that seems to want to keep it shut.&#160; Quiet contemplative thoughts, scrambling for where I left off and who I needed to help next.&#160; It was a juggling act.&#160; It felt like too much and I didn&#39;t do perfect, but I&#39;m proud for doing what I got done.</p> <p>I&#39;m pissed about thinking I lost my checking card.&#160; I&#39;m pissed that I had to jump through my banks hoops to put a hold on my accounts and scrambling to figure out if there are any automated payments that might bounce.&#160; I wasn&#39;t thrilled about the little sniper calls from people who chipmunked my number away&#160;for when they need&#160;my help (because my phone&#39;s ring makes me jump)&#160;but I didn&#39;t show it.&#160; I got over it and I made them happy.&#160; They have other people&#39;s email address and phone numbers, other people that could hook them up with me, but they like the source and while this sounds cocky &quot;I can&#39;t say I blame them&quot;.&#160; I fought my away around, I got my answers, I know who to go to when I need something&#160; that&#39;s out my grasp.&#160; Most of the time I&#39;m about results and who shouldn&#39;t be proud of that.&#160; I&#39;m not crazy&#160;with saying no.&#160; I don&#39;t mop myself into corners by doing -everything- someones way -- sometimes I can cut straight to the heart with an email and avoid begging, pleading, tone of voice, and strange reasoning ... When I sense &quot;emotion flags&quot;, I love communicating through email.&#160;Just tell me your problem, I don&#39;t need the &quot;puppy&quot; act.</p> <p>I&#39;m happy I got some more work done on our system and got more positive feed back.&#160; I like feeling like what I do is ultimately beneficial.&#160; I hope in some way the things I do can make a difference.</p> <p>I&#39;m happy I got to spend time with my sister.&#160; I&#39;m relieved that we had some time to talk and make light of everything that irks us.&#160; I&#39;m proud of acting goofy and&#160;making her and my neice laugh.&#160; </p> <p>Finally, I&#39;m&#160;excited I get to sleep now.&#160; despite the bug to do more &quot;stuff&quot;, to have &quot;fun&quot;, and browse around... I need to recharge!&#160; Night people!</p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://bouche.vox.com/library/post/exhaustion.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225230773549d00fae8b9c0b3000b?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> life sleep exhaustion a day of ups and downs