Strange Dream ...

I meant to write about this early, but I had a dream that I was on some sort of talent show, similar to American Idol.  I had picked and was practicing a song that fit.  Something I could make mine.

That song was

Nine Inch Nails - Hurt

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end

and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

When a dream like this comes by.  It actually freaks me out a little.

Lately, I've been thinking about how I've started to or have become distant with a lot of friends.  a...lot...of...friends!  In real life.  None of it is personal, there are no wars, arguments, no hate at all.  It's just a matter of geography, time, place, and having something to talk about.  I'm hoping this will change soon. It's got to, I think that dream was my subconscious mocking me.