Dear Kim and Alec...

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Hate to say it, but I was raised with this sort of attitude. BUT... minus the tugofwar between parents. My parents are still married...

But dang... sometimes as a kid I would have rather them just spank me than go on and on like they did.

And I'm way over it. That's part o' growing up and becoming an adult.
Well, I was raised by two alcoholics... My father was Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde, depending on sobriety or lack there of. My mom, well, she was alright but we still had some moments.

My father, at times, made Alec's comments seem as if they were written to be slapped in a hallmark card and while I've gotten over it as you have... It's a pain I'd rather so many didn't have to share with me.

To even things out, my father had hit me a few times. One in particular I remember was when he held my arms over my head and kicked me like a foot ball. OF both forms of punishment, I prefer neither!... My sister managed to curb that ever happening again. She was in her twenties and sent me up to her room. She ended up screaming at him for quite some time. When I was older, he went to punch me or to make me flinch... I didn't flinch at all, I told him that he could take his shot but he'd have to put up with me defending myself. He never tried that again. Aside from our battles and pain, I knew he was a different person when he wasn't 'under the influence', I also came to understand that it was an addiction for him... We managed to mend things when my mom filled him in on all the fun times we had after he chugged a few.

*shrug*

Life just sucks sometimes.
I have stories like that too. :(

It's amazing that we end up relatively 'intact' isn't it?
I think we can count ourselves lucky if we end up learning from what we've endured. Not lucky for having endured them though!

It's strange. I say I've put it all behind but it isn't really true. A lot of time is spent thinking back to our battles and time that I can safely say was lost. I feel bad, but not guilty for my actions and reactions to him. I feel upset because every incident I wish he recollected, was lost because he drank until he blacked out. For the longest time, he thought I was a little bastard 'just because'.

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