Crappy Friday
I went to bed earlier than I usually do. I was online, feeling crappy for various reasons... Not physically ill, just was unhappy with life and I think it manifested itself in a strong urge to sleep...
...14 hours later, I woke up. Could this be payback for years of insomnia? The opposite of insomnia? Non awakey-itis?
I woke up into another day of rain. Another cold upstate NY day where I can't go out for a long thought clearing walk. I could go if I bundled up, but I wasn't in the mood for that and for the past few days, it's poured, not rained. The type of heavy rain that didn't spare anything dry. The kind of downpour that found its what into everything. A few weeks ago, I bought a $17 umbrella -- that would have done the trick but I accidentally left it in my sisters SUV and it's been missing from her car and my possession ever since.
I got to the convenience store today and checked my checking account balance. It was under $100 and seeing it made me nervous. It's times like these where every expense, except coffee, is scrutinized. Where I spend enough time pondering if I should get something to eat, then all of a sudden, I get disgusted and just settle for ramen or mac and cheese, both foods I FUCKING hate. That's all hunger is. If you eat what you're sick of, the body doesn't care. It will still use what it needs for energy and turn the rest to fat. In the previous instances, it most likely turns that crap into fat!
The other day, one of the temp agencies that knows I'm desperate and will do almost anything for money called. I didn't return their call until a while later, so I missed a day job but they had another thing up their sleeves to offer me. A job as an administrators assistant, filing, typing, taking calls, and making coffee? I don't know, but they added fast paced and other terms that sweetened the deal. I hesitated for a moment because I remember this type of work was offered to me before. They had me come in and take these stupid java based exams that were limited to the creators imagination and didn't allow for some of the methods of doing things that I do... The results were not perfect and there for, they decided not to pass my resume on. I told her I wasn't interested and she said "you're not interested in this type of work?" and I said "not really". This reminded me of the conversation where I discussed what type of work I was interested in and she responded that this company has a subsidiary that is more suitable for me and she'd pass my resume on. Is it just me, or does it seem like she never did this? I have nothing against being an admin's assistant, only that it's not what I want to do. I feel that it wouldn't be something I'd be good at.
Today, I was expecting a call on whether or not I got a seasonal job at Best Buy. I didn't get one. So does this mean no? (I laugh sadly) When interviewing he asked me where he could place me and I said anywhere. Maybe that wasn't a firm enough answer? This is the second time I've been put off by them... Is there any department I couldn't work in? Appliances, maybe.
Oh well. I have to get the hell out of this funk and hunt down some more leads... And try not to sleep so long. Easier said than done -- it's my sisters weekend off and I like being 'out of her way'.
