A bit beyond tired
I'm tired of being dragged along, waiting to hear yes or no.
- I don't care if it's a no, it's better than dangling and waiting AND now i know what I need to do.
I'm tired of monotony. It's nice to know what to do... But I don't like feeling like I'm wasting.
- Those brain cells need exercise. I feel the need to accomplish something great. I miss that about ceramics.
I'm tired of finding myself in predicaments where I feel helpless and possibly completely fucked.
- I'd rob Peter to pay Paul, but John caught me on the way and he's looking at me rather aggressively wanting his money.
I'm tired of leaving the scene and coming back later to learn that someone's been an asshole..
- Seriously know, fucking grow up. grow the fuck up... act your fucking age.*
I'm tired of sitting agape wishing I had answers. Wishing I had some other way.
- Either I know you won't like the answer or me because I'm going to be blunt... OR I don't know, but I'd do anything to find out.
I'm tired of slow. creeping. moments. where I wish time moved faster.
- Tied to monotony. Wanting time to move faster makes me feel like I'm not respecting what time I've got to live, how ever long that may be.
Tired of vanishing money. Sneaky bills. Surprises that come with those sneaky bills.
- I remember not too long ago, everyone wanted their money... NOW. Now, they want me to fuck up and pay late! It's more profitable, ya know.
Tired of that feeling like I'm an outsider.
- I've been told that I'm smarter than I look, than I seem. That I'm much more appealing than I look. That I was pretty cool after all. I always was these things. Nothing has changed, betches... srsly.
Tired of people assuming.
- you know what they say about those who assume. And, yeah... I end up thinking you're an ass... But only momentarily barring certain assumptions.
Tired of not sleeping. Fighting sleep. Tossing and turning. Not being able to sleep. Fighting to wake up when I need to.
So tired of feeling undervalued.
- I'm bound and determined to pass out somewhere.
* - Root of tired/anger. I'm not fond of people treating others like shit and doing so while I'm not around to call them on it.
